"I don't know what I want

So don't ask me

Cause I'm still trying to figure it out

 

Don't know what's down this road

I'm just walking

Trying to see thru the rain falling down

 

Even tho I'm not the only one who feels

The way I do

I'm alone...

 

... I'm just a girl

trying to find a place

in this world"

(Taylor Swift)

This song basically encompasses how I'm feeling right now... except for the alone part cause I know that I'm not alone. But as for the rest of the song, it fits me to a "T". I don't know what's going to occur on this trip. What ministry is actually going to look like, which ones I'll actually work with... I have no clear idea what I'm doing after this trip (there are many ideas swirling around in my head but one hasn't stuck out yet)... heck, I don't even know what today holds. 

            But that doesn't stop me from walking down the "road" I'm on or dreaming about what I might encounter. If anything, my excitement goes higher and my dreams crazier- cause I know that no matter what is down this road, God is with me. And when I look at God's plans on one hand and my plans... whenever I've gone with God's plans, something amazing always occurs. However, when I choose my own plan, I usually end up less than impressed and I end up going with God's plan after all. So, with the record being God's plans- infinity times good vs. my plans- never works... it kinda makes sense that I'd go with God's plans for me in this world.

  I want to find my place in the world but in God's timing and in His place. I've read in "Captivating" by John and Stasi Eldridge, that as women, we don't want to be the adventure- we want to be a part of the adventure. {SO TRUE- this was mainly in reference to men and how sometimes they make us the adventure. However, the reality is simply that as women, we want something incredible to be involved in}.We also just started this new bible study by Beth Moore "Believing God" and in the first session Beth Moore stated that God wants to take us to a promise land here on earth. I can't wait to see where God leads me and what adventures I happen to have...